Okay then, everyone is gearing up for NYE parties (myself included) so I guess that means it’s time to do that whole ‘year in review’ thing.
So, here we go. 2008 in not-especially-ordered list form.
THE NOT SO AWESOME (To get it out of the way)
-Almost getting killed by a falling sheet of metal.
-Having a bit of weird time at my graduation that made it less than happy.
-Spending the entire year firmly and frighteningly in my overdraft.
-Having months and months of being almost unemployable.
-Not being able to spend as much time as I’d like with my family.
-Not taking very well to office dronery.
-In the latter half of the year, not doing anywhere near as much art/writing/bloggery as I’d like.
-The economy eating itself.
-Not dealing with any of this particularly well.
THE CONSIDERABLY MORE AWESOME.
-NOT getting killed by a falling sheet of metal.
-Graduating with a Masters Degree.
-Finally making it to Celtic Connections and having a great time.
-Having a couple of the most taxing but most productive couple of months ever. Involving rewriting, re-penciling, inking and colouring 50 pages of full-colour artwork under deadline insanity and actually getting it done.
-Finishing my new book, and it being published.
-Getting my first part time job before the owner had even finished reading my CV. Learning lots about coffee doing it.
-Spending half a year living with my good friend Mike, and then moving into a new place in an area I really love.
-Parents really helping me out to keep me in Manchester, a city I find myself loving more the longer I live there.
-Spending more time with some genuinely awesome, inspirational and fantastic people. Meeting new awesome, inspirational and fantastic people.
-Seeing some of the above do some genuinely fantastic things. I’m so proud of you guys.
-Running my first workshop, at musicport festival. Getting another for Scarborough Literature Festival next year.
-Getting a little bit of work with Nicalis, the guys doing the Cave Story Wii port. Seeing my work up on IGN, and possibly in Play Magazine, linked to one of my favourite games.
-Started to give myself a little more attention in how I look, and work at making myself look and feel better.
-Parents offering to help me print an issue of something when I get it done. My xmas/birthday present being a big help to that as well (a3 scanner printer).
-Having some really good job interviews, where the feedback has been really positive and it’s only been lack of experience letting me down. One of those interviews also giving me the gift of seeing the very centre of Manchester from like 40+ floors up. It was stunning.
-Finally managing to get another job, even if it’s not the best, and starting to work on fixing my overdraft. And not having student loans or credit cards, so when I’m back to zero, I’ll REALLY be back to zero.
-Via the above, answering some of the questions I’d put to myself about my future and where I should (or shouldn’t) be, and even though those answers were not entirely happy ones, gaining a great deal of conviction on what I need to be doing to make things right.
So, what about 2009?
Well, I don’t know. I’m not going to make promises about posting more or anything (though I am going to try), but what I will say is I’ve very much decided that 2009 is the year of ‘KT gets it together’. Exactly what form that takes, I don’t know yet. But I’m working on it. It’s been a really rough year emotionally, and there’s a lot of things beyond my control that are going to make things tough next year… But I’m going to grab thing one and make it work anyway. Despite the BBC’s insistence that 2009 is already broken, screw them, I wasn’t the one that broke it. This year has taken a lot of my naivety about how the real world works, but it’s also strengthened a lot of of what I feel about how it should be, and what I need to be doing in it.
If I have one resolution I should be making, it is to stop flailing and worrying and just get on with things. (I know the people who know me may respond with ‘well, DUH’ about that, but I stick my tongue out at you.) There has been a lot of success in this year for me, more than I realized until I started writing this post, but some of the less successful times really hit hard and have left me feeling a lot more powerless and useless than I actually am. But it’s time to leave that behind and start working on the things I actually DO have control over. That is so much more easily said than done, but I I don’t intend to let that stop me trying.
So yes. 2008 has been an odd one. Highs and lows all over the place. But I’m going to make 2009 better.
Have a good one, people. I’ll see you in the new year.